happy pill?

i cry a lot and im sad and empty every day even when im happy its weird. there's a gnawing feeling of fear and lots of pessimism 24/7 that i just can't shake off or ignore. ive become extremely paranoid that eveyr moment of my life is vulnerable for a terrible turn

at the edge of a dream

starting the new year

Eh, 2012 ended while I was on a very long drive all by myself after work but I did have some good food as soon as I got to my destination so that was OK. But so far, everything is going by normally and without excitement. 2012 was a terrible year for me but there were some good things so I'm thankful for those at least!

I usually don't really think of resolutions or follow them but I'd like this year to go by smoothly(which will be hard, but at least I hope to persevere!). If anything, as long as it's slightly better than 2012, I will be content by the end of this year.

selca from the last few days of 2012...